Vicarious Occasions

This may read a bit distilled and sterile I'm sorry for that but you've exhausted me.

Demand:
–verb (used with object)
1.
to ask for with proper authority; claim as a right


I wanted to take the time, to explain to you how I feel about demands. Demands have no place and simply will not be quartered by me. I am giving you the benefit of the doubt in hopes that you will read this carefully without ripping it apart trying to find out what I mean by use of certain words or phrases. It is clear and should not be misinterpreted.


Some things just are and we get to choose if we agree with what and how they "are". Its a 2 part thing you see, there is always a compromise involved. I have come this far and it wasn't because I was being demanded or insulted in any way.

I won't sugarcoat anything for anyone but I am still very careful not to hurt the ones I love; because I understand that not everyone thinks and acts like me. In reality, this is no reflection upon you. It is my choice and the manner in which I choose to do things in my life – not yours.
(You shouldn't take offense or read into anything I write too much. It is what it is, plain and simple.)

Insult:
–verb (used with object)
1.
to treat or speak to insolently or with contemptuous rudeness; affront.
2.
to affect as an affront; offend or demean.

As human beings we owe one another esteem or a sense of worth for personal qualities or abilities. We don't get to freely go about bad mouthing others and irresponsibly blurting careless opinions that should clearly be thought out way before thought exits mouth.

I am trying to clean up my life one way or the other and I do not want errant thoughts provoking haphazard words and decisions fueled by thoughts and not necessarily emotions.
What are you doing with your life and the way you live it?
(Take a moment to think about this deeply)

I'm not sure that there can ever be a cooling off period between us. It’s not healthy for you to be the way you are, never mind me in that scenario.
(Don’t read into this. Just simply take a step back and think about your thoughts.)

There has never been a time where things have lingered between us. Things have been crystal clear since day one. I place the blame totally on myself perhaps for not being clear enough though I'm not sure what else I could have said or done. I feel that it wouldn't be thorough enough for you regardless, again never mind me in that scenario.

I also placed the burden upon you to respect me. I say burden because I realize that respect is not something that you often practice or implement in your life on a daily basis.(Perhaps this is why you act how you do)

I don't want there to be any confusion in the future.
I will be respected by everyone that I choose to have in my life. Like I said we have a choice. That is what I choose. When I feel disrespected I retract.

I hope you realize sooner than later that you are alone in this big bad world.

We all are. We are lucky to have ourselves to take refuge in. We have our thoughts, our actions, our feelings- our minds. Nonetheless, we are obligated to learn how to make it and that will require other human beings like ourselves since we do not occupy the planet alone. In that process there will be times where we are misunderstood and we have to cope and try to understand the others that we choose to have in our lives.
(That is called compromise.)

That doesn't mean that anyone is required to understand us. It means that we try to learn. We don't get to do as we please with those that we may not understand. We don't get to bad mouth them and put them down when misunderstandings occur- At that point we combine compromise and respect and this is how we build relationships.
(Please read this paragraph several times- perhaps you should print it and have it with you always)


Take this as you will in order to understand me. I have made a decision; one, that you will not be able to reconcile. Realize that nothing can ever come out of this because I have a drawn a well defined line and I can now move forward from there. You on the other hand, have no lines- no boundaries.
Perhaps that is why it is so easy for you to cross others disrespectfully. They say you should start at the beginning but where is the beginning? You can draw your line and start to move forward whenever you want, you choose. But you have to choose, you have to create that starting point and only then will you begin to move forward.


An apple a day keeps the Doctor away.
Good thing you don't like apples.

Not the Doctor,
Me.