Free your words.

We feel them before we say them. Scary.


Feeling the egg shells,
Me.

and for these reasons...

We are who we are for a lot of reasons. Perhaps we'll never know why. But even though we don't have the power to choose where we came from we can still choose where we go. We can still do things and we can still try to feel okay about them.

At this point the only thing that still makes it a part of my life is that I keep thinking about it.

Me.

Tangerine Trees and Marmalade Skies

Bullshit. That's what I think about everything you've ever said to me so far. Everyday you make it more evident that you are incapable of being the one simply because you just don't want to put your part.
Sure, it requires effort but if you can't commit to the well being of yourself for you then how the hell can you be 100% for anyone- especially for me?
As it is my expectations of us are already so high (for me).

No Pressure, you've walked before. I wouldn't be surprised if you walked again.

Following the yellow brick road.
Me.

WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT FROM ME?

Tell me what it is that you want? Take a moment to explain to me exactly what you would like for me to do, because to be quite honest with you I'm not sure if I know anymore. Don't toy with me, and my heart because I promise you this: You will not be able to blink your fucking eyes without thinking about how badly you fucked up.

Go ahead,
Me.

Are you?

It's easy to take off your clothes and sleep with someone, people do it all the time.

But opening your soul to someone letting them into your spirit, thoughts, fears, future, hopes, dreams, that is being naked*

Bare,
Me.

A conversation of mind and heart.

Mind: He's annoying.

Heart: He's hilarious.

Mind: He's worlds biggest asshole.

Heart: He makes me race.

Mind: He ruins my day.

Heart: He saves you at the last minute.

Mind: He's driving you crazy, he's out of his mind.

Heart: You hate him, he's everything you want.

In between,
Me.

Sleepless...

Tired of elevated hopes and failed expectations...

Whatever words I say...

The scars of love...

Don't forget me, I begged. I'll remember you said. Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

Answers

Not sure they exists, don't know what to do.

Emtpy,
Me.

Shallow.

For someone who would never intentionally hurt me you sure are careless, arrogant, rude, insulting and insensitive. How are those for words?
Perhaps you should look them up in the dictionary to better understand how the things you said offended me and how you can never redeem yourself. You are far beyond stinky mouth. Stinky mouths got nothing on you. Monster mouth is more like it.

You really were a meano all along :(

Me.

The early bird get its.

There is nothing like rising and shinning to inner peace. My meditation was enlightening this morning, despite the fact that I had to quite my thoughts at least 3 times. It feels good to have an insight again. How did I get to this place? It's so strange how bliss can carry us to uncharted territory, and in these places we some how still feel safe even though we are surrounded by the unknown somewhat. The thing is that its a temporary bliss and temporary safety. Sooner than later at least for me, we begin to feel devoid of something and we start searching for our equanimity again. The truth is that it never left us, all along it was there way in the back. Our mind tells us that we should stay in the familiar and we should fear the unknown. But what is the familiar now?
We are one with our mind. Thoughts become things. If we truly want to be the change we see in the world we start with our temple first, our being.
"On the 3rd day (well 2nd day for me) of my journey I am realizing that my body appreciates me a whole lot more than I have appreciated it. Forgive me my sweet temple." (A.L)
I am one with me, alone and steadfast.


Om-
Me.

Naive

How could this be done. your such a smiling sweetheart...

Buh, Bye..

Dear Writers Block,

We all know that it is always all so bittersweet for me... Your farewell could not stay far behind. They say that artist have to feel to create. I can tell you that my most amazing creations were born out of pure misery and heartache. So, I of course agree.
For the last few days, I felt I couldn't write.
Perhaps because I didn't feel... enough.
Now that I have submerged myself into the rabbit hole of madness, (again) I shall write.

It hurts to part ways with you like this.
But there will be a great work of art. In your honor.
Forever the artist,
Me.

Vicarious Occasions

This may read a bit distilled and sterile I'm sorry for that but you've exhausted me.

Demand:
–verb (used with object)
1.
to ask for with proper authority; claim as a right


I wanted to take the time, to explain to you how I feel about demands. Demands have no place and simply will not be quartered by me. I am giving you the benefit of the doubt in hopes that you will read this carefully without ripping it apart trying to find out what I mean by use of certain words or phrases. It is clear and should not be misinterpreted.


Some things just are and we get to choose if we agree with what and how they "are". Its a 2 part thing you see, there is always a compromise involved. I have come this far and it wasn't because I was being demanded or insulted in any way.

I won't sugarcoat anything for anyone but I am still very careful not to hurt the ones I love; because I understand that not everyone thinks and acts like me. In reality, this is no reflection upon you. It is my choice and the manner in which I choose to do things in my life – not yours.
(You shouldn't take offense or read into anything I write too much. It is what it is, plain and simple.)

Insult:
–verb (used with object)
1.
to treat or speak to insolently or with contemptuous rudeness; affront.
2.
to affect as an affront; offend or demean.

As human beings we owe one another esteem or a sense of worth for personal qualities or abilities. We don't get to freely go about bad mouthing others and irresponsibly blurting careless opinions that should clearly be thought out way before thought exits mouth.

I am trying to clean up my life one way or the other and I do not want errant thoughts provoking haphazard words and decisions fueled by thoughts and not necessarily emotions.
What are you doing with your life and the way you live it?
(Take a moment to think about this deeply)

I'm not sure that there can ever be a cooling off period between us. It’s not healthy for you to be the way you are, never mind me in that scenario.
(Don’t read into this. Just simply take a step back and think about your thoughts.)

There has never been a time where things have lingered between us. Things have been crystal clear since day one. I place the blame totally on myself perhaps for not being clear enough though I'm not sure what else I could have said or done. I feel that it wouldn't be thorough enough for you regardless, again never mind me in that scenario.

I also placed the burden upon you to respect me. I say burden because I realize that respect is not something that you often practice or implement in your life on a daily basis.(Perhaps this is why you act how you do)

I don't want there to be any confusion in the future.
I will be respected by everyone that I choose to have in my life. Like I said we have a choice. That is what I choose. When I feel disrespected I retract.

I hope you realize sooner than later that you are alone in this big bad world.

We all are. We are lucky to have ourselves to take refuge in. We have our thoughts, our actions, our feelings- our minds. Nonetheless, we are obligated to learn how to make it and that will require other human beings like ourselves since we do not occupy the planet alone. In that process there will be times where we are misunderstood and we have to cope and try to understand the others that we choose to have in our lives.
(That is called compromise.)

That doesn't mean that anyone is required to understand us. It means that we try to learn. We don't get to do as we please with those that we may not understand. We don't get to bad mouth them and put them down when misunderstandings occur- At that point we combine compromise and respect and this is how we build relationships.
(Please read this paragraph several times- perhaps you should print it and have it with you always)


Take this as you will in order to understand me. I have made a decision; one, that you will not be able to reconcile. Realize that nothing can ever come out of this because I have a drawn a well defined line and I can now move forward from there. You on the other hand, have no lines- no boundaries.
Perhaps that is why it is so easy for you to cross others disrespectfully. They say you should start at the beginning but where is the beginning? You can draw your line and start to move forward whenever you want, you choose. But you have to choose, you have to create that starting point and only then will you begin to move forward.


An apple a day keeps the Doctor away.
Good thing you don't like apples.

Not the Doctor,
Me.

It matters not...

"I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul."

Feels good to be able to own those.

Nothing but love for you,
Me.

Blah, Blah, Blah- or Words?

You should own the words you say, because those words come with a responsibility. When you say hurtful words, those that are blurted out without thinking also come with a responsibility one that you carry like a weight- and you can't simply un-say those. I am far from perfect but, I always own my words because I know at some point I may have to eat them.
Groove is in the heart.

Bon Apetit,
Me.

False pretense...

Misrepresentation of real self, intention, motive, feelings, or ability'.

Fortune cookin it,
Me.

Ahoy Mate's and Soul Mates

There is a unique ability and a fearless nature in the souls ability to explore the infinite depths of its own abyss. It is what allows you to be free and clear of judgement and perception prejudices. This is a trait that very few have. To be compelled, to extrapolate and eviscerate from the clutches of those around you that are only interested in changing what you are.

To me, you are perfect.

Still a little stiff but loving the pixie sticks and science experiments,
Me

A day without shoes.

Ok, so this was pretty difficult for me. I spent the day running errands barefoot. It was a hot sticky morning, and a wet, muddy afternoon- not bad for just one day without shoes.

But for many kids around the world, this is most certainly not the case. Imagine being without shoes everyday- possibly contracting all kinds of soil-transmitted diseases, like hookworms or jiggers. And infections that just get worse when there is no clean water to help wash them away.

I took my shoes off for one day to spread awareness about the importance of a pair of shoes to a child. Do you know how many other people I actually saw without shoes?

None.


Miami: the most populous county in Florida and the ninth-most populous county in the United States with a population of 2,500,625. The 42nd largest city it is the principal, central, and most populous city of the South Florida metropolitan area, the most populous metropolis in the Southeastern United States.
According to the US Census Bureau, Miami's metro area is the seventh most populous in the United States.

Miami is a major center and a leader in finance, commerce, culture, media, entertainment, the arts, and international trade.In 2010, Miami ranked seventh in the United States in terms of finance, commerce, culture, entertainment, fashion, education, and other sectors.

It ranked thirty-third among global cities.

In the past Miami has been ranked as "America's Cleanest City" according to Forbes Magazine for its year-round good air quality, vast green spaces, clean drinking water, clean streets and city-wide recycling programs.

In 2009, in a study of 73 world cities, Miami was ranked as the richest city in the United States and the world's fifth-richest city, in terms of purchasing power.

I don't understand one day without shoes and all these wonderful facts about this city and little if any people took off their shoes.

It's pretty sad that society is so stuck on the self and attached to a reality they have created to their liking. A reality with no regard for others. I had people stare me down like I was some kind of retro hippie just because I wasn't wearing shoes- a lot of which didn't even bother asking me why, despite the fact that I was fully dressed and conducting business.

I wish the rest of the Miami would wake up. Miamians: so many are caught up in the bullshit that others are thinking, so caught up in that South Beach party it up, get wasted stupidity. They are clueless about art, culture, people, lives, countries- they are pretty much clueless about anything that isn't "self".

It’s easy to see how shoes and clean water could go hand-in-hand in preventing diseases. I guess it is also easy to overlook the need of others when your so busy worrying about who you're going to step on with your Jimmy Choos on the way up the corporate ladder.

If you are reading this, you live in Miami and you didn't take off your shoes- Become a little more aware. There's so much more to life than what is going on in only yours.

Hating Miami,
Me.

Terribly In Love...

Have you ever been in-love? It makes you vulnerable, rips open your chest and it makes your heart beat erratically.
This means that someone can get in and make a mess of your insides.


Still so messy on the inside,
Me-

Happy and Full.

I think you are brilliant and wonderful, much more than half the people that I've ever met.

You are:
Smart
Funny
Interesting
Complicated
Moral
Real
and Courteous.

Eat, Sleep, Laugh,
Me.

Shallow.

We are all like wild flowers;
Shocked and hurt by actions but in the end you still gave me more than you took away.

How quick the middle became the end.

Acceptance

Only when I learned to accept defeat and offer the victory I was happy from the inside out.

In the words of Steve Jobs:

"Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes... the ones who see things differently -- they're not fond of rules... You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things... they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who actually do."

Here's to me.

There comes a point where we realize that when we accept who and where we are we begin to move forward and steadfast. We begin to actually live.

Accepting the now,
Me.