Danger: Extreme Highs and Severe Lows Ahead

He is able read my moods, needs, and desires. This makes me feel important and admired. Which far outweighed the feelings of abandonment his absence would bring. Every time he picked me up he would whisk me to another fantasyland adventure. (Far from everyone I knew.) The impending pause, did indeed, highlight the beauty of the moments we shared, but also kept my heart chained, bound, and firmly on the ground. This is an addicting pattern I had to experience, but this type of love drug warrants a warning label. Danger: Extreme Highs and Severe Lows Ahead: Tears of joy shed one day will be accompanied by tears on your pillow the next. May also lead to extreme bouts of insecurity, questioning ones value. Wondering, “Why doesn’t he call…text, email, send smoke signals, a message in a bottle, a homing pigeon, or a rumor via mill?” I was smack dab in the middle of “Beautiful” Sigh… Still, I realized, I have to grow a pair and muster up the strength to say…”Good Bye.” Yes, it’s a beautiful part-time love story… a lovely dream. But alas, perhaps it’s time for me to wake up and face reality. His ability to know exactly what I want, taught me how to read me, too. I realized I loved every minute with him, because he is everything I want in a full-time relationship…but this was relationship-light. It’s a good dress rehearsal, but I want opening night. I don’t want to be a stand-in. I want to be the leading lady. If someone just like, him, under those circumstances, answered my new ad? Well then, that would be even more “Beautiful”.