I wish you enough

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright. I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye. Enough, goodbye.

So Iater today...

I've been thinking a lot about relationships and situations, about causes and effects and about actions and reactions... I'm going to focus on the things that I want in a relationship. Its quite simple. Its been established that I want the fairytale, although I get a lot of shit for my high expectations of unrealistic "love". I'm a hopeless romantic so what? There isn't anything wrong with that. If you want to lower the bar so that your created reality cannot destroy you go right ahead. I choose to accept that those relationships that have hurt me in the past haven't really made me any stronger- but however they have made me raise the bar for the next "pretend" Prince Charming. This makes the journey a little more interesting. The past couple of days I've been inspired and although I'm not sure why exactly, I think it has a lot to do with the realization of what "is". Love is like an illusion. What exactly happened? How did it happen? I didn't see it coming? It is a very thin, delicate tulle of silk or nylon having a cobwebbed appearance, for trimmings, veilings- Its obscure and at the same time incandescent. It fills you with a bright ardor, that is purposeful and extraordinary or does it? Then somewhere a long the line we are awesomely greeted by our two friends which we were hoping didn't join the debauchery: Failed Hope and Elevated Expectation. All of a sudden the illusion turns into a disillusion much Cinderella's Slippers and horse and carriage and just like that the fairytale turns into a bittersweet mixture of illusion and disenchantment- Is that what love it?

Hello 2013

Dear, 2013 Be good to me. I want the fairytale.