Maybe I am selfish, childish, immature, irrational, illogical, emotional, sensitive, imbalanced, prude, inexperienced, argumentative, ball-busting and un-matrixy but that is the beauty of life. I am me.
"Man is neither entirely a puppet of the gods,nor is he entirely the captain of his own destiny; he's a little of both. (freewill) We gallop through our lives like circus performers balancing on 2 speeding side-by-side horses - one foot is on the horse called 'fate', the other on the horse called 'free will'. And the questions you have to ask every day is, Which horse is which? Which horse do I need to stop worrying about because it's not under my control, and which do I need to steer with concentrated effort? "
I choose how I'm going to regard unfortunate circumstances in my life and if I will see them as curses or opportunities.
I can choose my words and the tone of voice in which I speak them
Most importantly, I can choose my thoughts.
I know better. I can do anything. I can finish this myself, it isn't only possible. It is essential: I forgive myself and I let go.
I learn how to discipline my speech preventing my energies from spilling out of me through the rupture of my mouth, exhausting me and filling the world with words, words, words instead of serenity, peace and bliss.
If God wanted me to be a ditzy, shy, american girl with thin blond hair, he would have made me that way, but he didn't. I accept how I was made and embody myself fully therein- working within my personality. I am a work in progress, evolving, learning, growing...
Everything - for no reason whatsoever - is perfect.
I see the best in everyone. I assume that everyone is emotionally capable of REACHING their highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and then I have hung on for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness.
If I'm truly to beome an autonomous woman, then I must take over that role of being my own guardian...women should strive to become like the men they had always wanted to marry.
I encourage you to lose balance sometimes for love, for emotions, for people that you have some sort of connection with because sometimes you must do this in order to live a balanced life.
Your treasure - your perfection - is within you already. But to claim it, you must leave the busy commotion of the mind and abandon the desires of the ego and enter into the silence of the heart.
Eat, Pray, Love.

